upside down, downside up
Friday, September 30, 2005
so i still got tt in the end. why am i not surprised.
and, to contradict it all, me and jinx got the ricola sponsorship!! so happy. tot they dun care me liao since i waited for like a week or so without any news from them. and the person's nice, she wished me all the best for my exams. hahah.
today is happy slack day. i slept for like 10 hrs or so! a luxury noone shld be able to afford, not during this period of time. lalalala. BUT, i wun get to go home this week agn, so it's fair. hahah. next week's another busy week. major acc quiz on mon, ppt presentation on wed, stats presentation on fri. cover letter to be done, fm proj to finish my own part and discuss by fri.
everybody, esp those who haven watched it yet, there's powerpuff girls movie on ch5 this sat nite!! must watch k. though i can't. :( boohoo.
she uttered nonsense at 2:01 AM
long, long day
Saturday, September 24, 2005
it was a long day.
but the day got longer.
growlll. haven eaten a single shit since lunchtime. which was
ydy. no, i'm not on a crash diet or sth. sighs. slept at 3am for like 2 hours??before got woken up.
and in a few hrs time, i need to pack up and leave.
i'm drained, burnt out. fatigue is kicking in, not just physically, but mentally too. i dunno if it's the exhaustion talking; i'm considering stuff i shouldnt be thinking of in the first place.
some things i want to say, but can't. not here anw. jk is sleeping. duH. haix.
woman, i'm so sorry i'm always not in the best of moods when talking to u. but ure the one i think of when i haf troubles. and ure the one i can be myself to. pple expect me to be oh-so-happy all the time, but u noe i do haf my moody times too. which, esp these few weeks, has been occuring almost daily. i feel bad. i'm sorry i always rant and rave when ure online, i'm sorry i dun initiate calling u up, i'm sorry it seems as though i treat anyone else better than i do u. reading ur blog and thinking abt many things, i am slowly aware that u haf ur own life to lead now. new frens, new activities, new commitments, and especially, prospective *ahem* (yes, QC passed). i'm exhilarated for u, i dun want to always be the person poor u always haf to waste time consoling. dun tell me i'm not wasting ur time, i mean i noe i prob am the only person u always worry for on msn. and........
i dunno where this is gg, i just tot i wanted to tell u.
she uttered nonsense at 5:54 AM
bad week.
Thursday, September 22, 2005
waiting for xiu to come back from her talk with j. i'm praying for her, i hope everything will turn out fine. i dun want to see her crying anymore, at night when he aint ard, yet being strong when he's such a twit to her.
stop being so selfish, you.selfless love.
this week hasnt been the best of weeks. my fm quiz turned out disastrous (not like i din expect it though) with abt 70% of the open-ended qns left blank. i tried, i really did. acc quiz came back much worse den expected, i was only half a mark away from a
See Me. great, just great.
idol wasnt being very idol the past few days either. i found myself being afraid to talk to idol. it's sad, but i'm hoping this week just happenes to be a horrible week for everyone. ydy wasnt good either, though i'm not able to pinpoint anything. it was just the feeling, and i felt the loneliness engulfing me.
i always thought frens came before anything, but apparently not. gone, gone, gone. one by one, and in the end, all that was left was a miserable and self-pitying asshole of a yq. one day i'll just disappear into oblivion, and noone will notice.
daniel powter - bad day
cos you had a bad day
you're taking one down
you sing a sad song just to turn it around
but nothing works.
she uttered nonsense at 9:14 AM
tired of perpetually being tired.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
i dun want play liao.
tmr got quiz and i only knew of it abt......let's see.......an hour ago? yepps. 10 chpts. ten. Ten. T.E.N.
congratulations, and jubilations, i can tell everyone that dead i'm gonna be.i'm exhausted, all i want to do is hit the bed..but the book is beckoning me to absorb it, chew it and swallow it whole. i kinda feel like just gg there and see how much my mediocre knowledge of fm can help me thru.
ok, break over. back to the books.
she uttered nonsense at 11:36 PM
...... no need to burn midnight oil to finish homework liao.
bad yuqin, bad, BAD yuqin.been telling myself to finish up my long overdue FM homework and stop procrastinating. den i come online and wad do i find? the homework solutions posted up. congratulations. one zero, coming up.
............*grumbles* i was only 2 weeks late wad.
she uttered nonsense at 4:25 AM
yq:)
Friday, September 09, 2005
i'm liking my idol more and more everyday. :) everything i want to be, and more.
i want to help, or even if i can't do anything to improve the situation, i want to listen, i want to hear, i want to understand, i want to console. but ure tight-lipped and i'm afraid to ask, afraid to upset u, afraid to step into the "forbidden". i know u want ur own space, so i give it to u. i know u dun want me to interrupt, so i just let u be. i know u want to prove that all's well, so i stop asking silly qns.
but i really do want to help.
recess week will just be another week for me, i'm staying in cos of lessons, projects, and cca. but at least there'll be pple in the same situation as me. i'll go kachiao yiing everyday if need be. hahah.
- stocktaking needs to be done but i haf no idea wad's gg on. how to hand in the list by the 12th??
- OB proj interviews all of next week
- 114 report on career industries
- bloody-many-FM-qns
- study for fm quiz
- crack open my stats notes
- clear all tuts
- approach sponsers
i think co, or rather, its pple, is the only thing keeping me sane in this insane environment i live in now.
please, please say ure joking. pls dun put me as biz mag. i'll go bonkers and jump for u to see.
she uttered nonsense at 1:15 AM
