Thursday, June 28, 2007
I thought everything was for the better already, the last time it happened was 3 years back that time when I was in j2, but then today, you did it again. It showed just how much you haven't changed. You said you're disappointed, I'm even more so.
The whole time I was counting from one to ten repeatedly, telling myself not to get worked up, not to get upset, to control my anger and hurt. One is enough to mess things bad. And I'm proud to say that I managed to, I kept on with my stuff as normally and calmly as I could, and I tried my very best to swallow the very things that were threatening to spill. Although they still did in the end, but at least I can say that this time I didn't make things worse than they could have been.
I was holding a pamphlet on my hands and staring at it a long time, before I realized I wasn't really even looking at it. Just many many thoughts running through my head, and what I wanted to say to you. So many things, so many. The exact same things that keep repeating in my head everytime something happens, and which adds to themselves every single time it does. I tell myself to think about the good things, afterall it isn't fair to overlook the good and harp on the bad. But I couldn't help it, negativity begets negativity, and to be fair to myself I already tried my best this time, I really did.
I will tell myself that it will be easier to get used to with every time it happens.
Anyways, han! it's not that I don't want to post the collages properly!! There's something wrong, supposed to can click and enlarge. But ohwells I'll figure out some other time when I'm free-er haha.
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she uttered nonsense at 10:26 PM
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Yayy finally done up a new blogskin cos the old 'gimme my beetle' pic just wasnt working.
Just dropping a msg to say that this is my 201st post! I didn't even realize until just now.
And since I'm lazy to blog, here's some collages which I managed to put together after playing with photo collage maker the past evening.
LOTS gathering! (: i love us, hurhurr.
comm outing at partyworld! first-ever-damn-successful outing. =D
dblO with the colleagues the past sat
and some random fotos from schoolOk that's about it, off to bed for me!! My bedtime got postponed from 11 to 1130 to 1145 to 12 den finally now slightly after 1230, I'm done. wheeee~
One more thing, everyone is welcomed to email me at my ntumail whenever, I'll be glad to entertain with quick replies from the office. heh. and while im on this, thanks so much to han and xiaobai my regular email khakis for keeping me awake every weekdays hah!
Goodnight, world!
she uttered nonsense at 12:24 AM
Sunday, June 17, 2007
I'm trying so hard not to be disappointed, to say the least.
Anyways, been watching really old mtvs lately, and everything's so retro! Back in the days when nick carter was still cute haha. I think the mtv production cost then must be so much cheaper than it is now, and it ain't because of inflation or anything like that. haha they basically just film them posing around in a white room and opening their mouths really widely to the lyrics. The hansons, 98deg, Boyzone etcetc. old school! haha.
I need anger management courses man.
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she uttered nonsense at 12:55 AM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
I was so angry, my hands were shaking even more than it usually does. I don't even understand why I was that pissed, I just know I was. And the whole time I kept telling myself, 'in control, yuqin, keep in control'.
Have always been very temperamental esp when it comes to that, I just dunno when this will end. Or if it ever will.
Ren.
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she uttered nonsense at 11:18 PM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
My legs are hurting from all that heels-wearing day in day out but now that I'm so used to being in them, I feel dwarfish whenever I wear flats. mannn.
So the seemingly food-deprived group of savages met up at newton circus to try to quench their insatiable hunger, and it's scary the amount of food all of us could suck in. scaryyyy. yiing haoyi, pics when they're up ok!!
Finally got around to getting a father's day gift, and it was on discount so it didn't exactly pass the 100 budget. yayy can't wait to give it to daddy dearest. =D
Happy 21st kel! we love you!! hahaha
Whenever wj is around, I dunno why but we end up doing really stupid things and saying really dumb stuff. And it's like we suddenly become damn aunty omg. *faint* she's a bad influence hurhurr!!
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she uttered nonsense at 1:11 AM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
I'm not used to people being so nice to me. *shivers* It makes me wonder what's up their sleeves, or what their ulterior motive is. shruggg. I can't help it I'm cynical.
shoulda just kept my bloody mouth shut.
There's this robot baby thingy that recently came up in japan, here's the video link. It's somewhat disturbing though, and if I didn't know better I would have sworn off giving birth after watching this.
Japan's the land of pron, haha!
Into highschoolmusical once again. I just learnt the dance moves over the weekend, how positively teenagerish! I'm grossed out with myself. hurhurr.
iiiiiii can give you gatsbyyyyyyyy, gatsbyyyyyyy, gatsbyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ Hate the face massage ad thingy.
It's close to 1130, off to bed I go, ta!
Lord, what fools these mortals be!
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she uttered nonsense at 11:09 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
hurhurr, look what I found! www.yq.com.sg
I remember back when we were still using transitlink cards, there was a period of time when SMRT was heavily promoting the GIRO transitlink cards system or sth. They had a tagline which went, Why Queue? Go for AutoTopUp! And then days after that, my bro kept saying 'yq, go for ATU' -.-
This weekend will be a packed one, with saturday being at red dot museum and sunday at hsinghai. Speaking of which, I'm kinda worried cos my wrists are stiff like nobody's business and I think we'll all get scolded on sunday haha!
MAADness on sale this weekend at red dot museum, do check it out! Designer stuff at great prices, more details here.
Oops, pek just called. I'd better go downstairs now. tata~
she uttered nonsense at 11:40 PM
