narcissistic pleasure

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

I'm glad for that little talk. I guess I was more assured about what I really want or want not, and I think it cushioned my otherwise-dunno-wad reaction. I think I'm fine with it, in fact with a tinge of respect, and afterall it really isn't any of my business. Don't we all love korean dramas? I love huns. haha

And I still can't believe jaekay that twit thought I was for real just now, hello I'm not THAT ahem ok?! haha. I mean like, I'll only do it if she allows it what. HAHAHAH (and yes i'm still joking here) faints. I can't wait for sunday. (:

My stupid tendency to visualize stuff is traumatising me. Ohgawd, the graphic that ran through my head.........................*shudders* yuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkS! hahahaha =D And jinx is still in denial.

she uttered nonsense at 2:40 AM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Instead of pms, let's blame it on schizophrenia, and leave it as that. haha =D

I think I'm really lucky to have very tolerant people around who take quite abit of shit from me. And so, sorry, and thank you for being so persistent and not giving up on me. I shall stop being evil. hehh (:

she uttered nonsense at 2:58 AM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

So I'm kinda screwed cos I din go for the first lesson and now I have no idea what I'm supposed to be talking about or what I'm supposed to do in the first place. And now I'm wasting precious time stoning online and waiting for a miracle to happen. A script for my speech tomorrow to fall from the sky, perhaps.

Everyone's having their afternoon naps now, and I'm the only alive one at home. Now you know you can blame my genes for my laziness and love for sleeping. (:

And that reminds me. Some guys are so desperate that they'll just oogle at any girl who goes by. mygoodness. Hello, I'm probably ranked number2 in the list of 'the ugliest people in the world' (my ego says there must be someone uglier than me hurhur) and it'll do you no good to look at me. Like maybe you'll get sore eyes or something. Anyways so remind me never to go by their rooms ever. It'll be the last time I'm going to help my bro pass stuff to him. sheesh.

uh-oh. Time's a-wasting. Off I go, tata.

she uttered nonsense at 5:21 PM

That was.... weird. haha. I felt like asking, what is it that you want to say to me? Why must type and delete, type and delete? I can see the '--- is typing a message' appear and disappear many many times. hahaha. Freakyyyyyyyy.

Good chance to learn new things about people that you never knew about. And btw, yiing is a horrible influence especially if you're trying to cut down on shopping. I tell you, one day, this girl's either going to shop till she becomes bankrupt, or fall down or knock her head till she concusses. Ohwait. She nearly did concuss. *faints*

School's moving on at full speed, got an oral presentation on monday and gotta DRESS UP for friday's image consulting lesson. Full package with the bloody painful shoes that we call court shoes and makeup and all. Tuesday's freaky cos I'll be in a class full of year1 students and I have no idea how these people are. First yoga lesson on wednesday with jinxy and I'll be staying alone every thursday cos my huns don't want me on thurday nights. ): hahahah ahwells. And co and PA application to worry about throughout the next 2 months so if I go mad please forgive me. And my skin's peeling, AGAIN. ): sadded.

Stupid idiot, you. I'm going to continue my little tantrum and ignore you. haha.

she uttered nonsense at 1:18 AM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Bolstie says hi (:

she uttered nonsense at 3:51 PM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

School's starting tmr, NOOOOOOOOO!!!

I just finished printing the 152 pages thingy for 205. And that's just one part of the background reading, I've yet to print the 92 pages one. Printer's going on strike soon. haha. 205 scares me, what with the stacks of readings and the iCEE project. bleaH.

My daddy just bought World of Warcraft. I have no idea why, and I can think of a thousand million better ways to spend the money. hahaha. He says cos he wants to know what's 'in'. Like how he wants to take a stab at Second Life. *faint* Boys will be boys.

yk said there aren't any tamil electives available cos all the good tamil teachers have gone to teach stats. wahhahahhah

My brother is a disgusting piece of shit. He's having phone sex in my room WAHHAHAHA!! And he says we shouldn't be getting our bachelors, we should be getting our SPINSTERS cos bachelors are for guys only. What hidden sexist meaning, and how irritatingly lame he is.

x cross fingers please. x

she uttered nonsense at 10:45 PM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

OST High School Musical - Breaking Free

THERE!! THIS SONG!!!!

We're soarin', flyin'
There's not a star in heaven that we can't reachhh~

she uttered nonsense at 3:35 AM

I was ready to lash out when it came, but in the end there were just too much to say that I didn't have the energy to after that. haha.

It's the realities of life, yes I know, but I'm still entitled to not like it rite? For convenience sake. Grovelling at my feet and fawning only when you need a favour. What we call Hall13 culture. hurhur. But then again, I'm probably guilty of it too, so.

Last night I sat through High School Musical and Herbie together at a go. My second time of HSM and the stooooopid catchy song is already imprinted in my weak head. So teenybopperish. Though I still think the show is lame. But ahwells, it's Disney afterall. And Vanessa Hudgens is quite pretty. Anyways just now I was tuned to 987, and the song is the top 21st song of 2006!! faint. bubblegumpop haha. And and, the more I watch Herbie, the more I'm loving VW Beetles. They aren't just 'bugs'!! hurhur.

I should stop going for night walks, especially with my freaky long black hair and penchant to wear white these days. I think I almost hai-ed a taxi driver the previous time. oops =x But I like the tranquility and darkness, I can walk on the road most of the time as if I was king. haha. The quietness helps my mind sort out stuff clearer and quicker, and in replacement of the obscurity of the surroundings, I seem to be more willing to open up all that is being concealed in me.

Ahh. I did do my annual reflections and resolutions and stuff like that ok. Just that I decided that the customary 'summary of the year' blog entry was better off drafted instead. haha.

Qs says 'to reflect on letting go'. Let go of 06, and welcome 07 with open arms. I want to do just that. Clearing my room today is a first step. Putting aside the past and leaving the spaces open for the future.

Oh, one advice? Don't nag at me if you want me to talk to you. I've got my parents for that.

The past week has always been a time of celebration for most people. What with christmas then the ushering in of the new year. In the midst of all the merrymaking and festivities, we need to be more aware of those who aren't exactly having as much fun as we are. It really isn't any of my business, so I shan't say too much, but... *hugs*. If you do see this.

May 2007 be a much better year for everyone.

she uttered nonsense at 2:55 AM