narcissistic pleasure

holidayS!!!

Saturday, April 29, 2006

WAHAHHAHAHAHA omfg I LOVE MY YUMI!!!!!! muacksss to u too sweetie!!! :D

ahha damn. using vulgar words more and more freely these days... must be ahpek's influence. jiayou ahpek!!!! 2 more papers nia!! ahah. gg to miss him when he graduates... :( everyone, awwwwwwwwww. hahaha

can't think straight, brain's crammed full of info. must slowly release....and that's wad the hols are for!!! heee

just got back from cycling at ecp.... been a long time since i've been there, feels good to just let the wind blow against my face and not give a damn to the world. It got me thinking abt alot of stuff that i postponed thinking due to the exams.

i feel selfish. not just to u, but to u too. i think it's unfair of me, and i hate myself for that. sometimes i wonder what would happen if nth happened, would i be happier? would i stop thinking stupid thoughts? would i wonder abt this or that? would i irritate u as i do now?

To think i used to dislike being like that. i still talk to them, yes, but it's different. at least to me it is. maybe cos inside, i noe wads gg on. i cant help it, circumstances change, yet deep within me, i feel as though i want to join them back, to bring things back to status quo. but, wad is the status quo really?

i feel like.......i'm drifting off to one side alr. but you noe, mind and body different. think one thing, do another. 'im sorry i just cant do this', you say, but after that wad do u go and do? homosapiens are such contradictory characters. or issit only me?

so..........have i turned into ur worst nightmare yet?

always be careful what u wish for. cos when it comes, can u really handle it?

she uttered nonsense at 7:02 PM

smile, and the world smiles with u

Monday, April 10, 2006

7 hours of cinematic research, with an hour and a dinner break in between. No wonder i'm loathing my lappie so much. Feel like puking now larr. Shall take a break now. Good luck to all u peeps out there mugging ur hearts out. Mug harder. (: hahaha

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile even tho' it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by,
If you smile thro' your fear and sorrow.

Smile and maybe tomorrow,
you'll see the sun come shining through; for you

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,

Although a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time,
You must keep on trying.

Smile, what's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worth-while,
If you just smile.

she uttered nonsense at 11:42 PM

Friday, April 07, 2006

Didn't think I'd be that affected, but ohwells. I want a hug now. I guess I shall just have to hug myself. *huggies*

I'm tired. Exam preparation is exhausting, especially if you usually just stone and get nothing done.

You know how under severe provocation you just feel like using the f word? This chao fker deserves the f word on him, and more. Bring it on.

she uttered nonsense at 1:10 AM

i love jiakai

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Can't wait for everything to be over..........................

Don't you positively hate exams? haha. I feel like burning all the phone-book-disguised-as-text-books and lecture notes and drink them down. Ohwells. Anyway, so now I'm updating, dear jk. Look up there!! the title. heehee. And I just gave you my search engine. ahahaha

I got....4 more hours to change my mind about S/Uing. nahhh.

I just learnt how to print screen!! So good to have IT support 24/7. (:

And nothing I just typed makes sense rite? heehee. who cares??? :p

she uttered nonsense at 5:49 PM