Friday, March 30, 2007
haha omg I'm so free these days I keep blogging. WHEEE~ Or maybe it's cos I'm home and home makes me happy!! =D
Was watching this gay-themed show... I wonder, these actors aren't really gay in real life are they? If they aren't then how do they tahan doing it with another guy? Especially the kissing scenes? How do they stare so lovingly into each other's eyes without cringing? haha.
But on the other hand, if I was really acting, I wouldn't really mind kissing a girl, really. Just saying. HAHA (I can so imagine jinx eeeyur-ing me now la)
Here's the link for people who are interested *ahem*yiing*ahem*
I got driving tmr. sigh.
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she uttered nonsense at 1:56 AM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Life is all about balance.
Balance between good and evil,
Balance between work and play, and..........
and....
and Balance between masculinity and feminity!!! HAHAHAHAH
Don't you think pek looks positively adorable here!! awww~ CHIOBU wheet-wheeeeeeeeeet!! *wolfwhistles* so shu nv somemore. =D
On a totally irrelevant note, wujingjin that *tootX* made me WALK back to hall all by myself carrying 2 freaking heavy, weigh-a-tonne goodie bags on top of my usual bag AND IT WAS RAINING. So besides looking really cheapo and giam siap, I looked terribly pathetic struggling to walk as quickly as I can so I won't get SO wet. Thanks huh huns.
And some people just don't get it.
You know what works best to calm me down? Bolstie. (: Bolstie makes me feel immediately at peace with the world. (((: Which is sometimes quite worrying, cos like jinx said, it's like a drug to me. *grumbles* I LOVE BOLSTIE OKAY, SHE'S MY BEST FRIEND AND YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS HMPH.
she uttered nonsense at 3:27 PM
Finally more or less done with the 0102 assignment, left references nia. Jinx is sleepingggggggg.
Met up with my dearest bff last friday, and I'm just glad to be able to see her and breathe town air at the same time. Hope what I said helped.
So today we had a great outing, minus the fact that we kenna pSed by two very act dua pai pple haha, but it's ok. Girls RULE!! heehee. Will upload photos when huns send them to me.
Never try to do anything secretive at jp, it just DOESN'T work. The place is plastered with antiyou-ians la!! HAHAH but really, are they suay or suay?? hehheh.
Maybe...... this time I really mean it. I'm getting used to it, and I guess it does somehow reflect in my face, haha. But anyway, it's better for everyone, isn't it? For you and for me and the entire human race~ *sings*
放手吧。
Ohno, I still got my final presentation outline to submit latest by 0830 ltr! arghh. Back to work, ta~
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she uttered nonsense at 2:28 AM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
I feel so used. goaway.
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she uttered nonsense at 4:20 PM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
So many things happened.
That evening on the platform, I couldn't control myself. Maybe it was the frustration, maybe it was the sudden realization, I dunno. It just all came out. I wanted to hide, I didn't want anybody to see, much less in public, but I just couldn't find anyplace else. I took the train back to boon lay, and went walking aimlessly ard jp. Then I felt better after that, just walking around in my own time, being uncontactable, as if I can really care less abt the world.
I think it's the understanding that he was right afterall, and yet I'm still trapped. It's the knowledge that others are already starting to be unhappy, even myself, yet I can't get out. I finally went back, and had a good talk with huns, and felt much much better. Although I think I may be easily persuaded by her haha, but we shall see.
Then on friday, just when I finally got past that, or rather started being more resigned to the fact, the call came. At first it was more of a 'fyi' thing, and I was worried, and I wanted to ask, but there wasn't time, so we hung up. So I still had quite a fun time at the celebration, thanks to victoria and feiling for that btw. Then after that he called again, this time updating me, and this time I got really worried, and I wanted to go, but thinking I was busy doing project, he said 'it's ok, don't be unduly worried'. Then today during rehearsal it just kept coming, and of course I was still worried, but I had things on my mind, things to settle, I guess it came off across the phone. And BOOM everything came up again.
Not being able to this, not being able to that.... Not, not, not.
Nothing I do seems right.
You know, sometimes it's not the blatant pinpointing and scolding that hurts, it's the silent disappointment that I detect that really aches.
I can't wait for these two weeks to be over. I want to fast forward. I feel like I can't breathe.
Pray with me, will you? pls.
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she uttered nonsense at 3:20 AM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
argh. I so didnt want to switch to the new blogger, but I've got no bloody choice! urgh. I thought I would be gone elsewhere for good! (jk, i guess i just don't like lj laa)
Don't ask what I'm doing up at this time. Was supposed to go to sleep, then I suddenly thought of checking certain things, and one thing led to another, and another, AND ANOTHER, and now I can't get to sleep. Because I'm now having a 'wad the.....' feeling. Seriously, and it's kinda hilarious too. Huns I'll show it to you when I'm back in hall!! I saved them under favourites.
Oh btw, recently, two people googled 'ntuco concert' and landed here. Someone googled huns's name and landed here too. Mystery of mysteries, haha.
I've got so much work undone, I'm screwedddd. Officially, inside out. ARGH.
I woke up in cold sweat from a really scary nightmare last night, and I don't want it to ever come true. My heart was pumping really, really fast, and I could literally feel my heart break. The worst thing is that it seemed so real. =x
I.... suspect. But I shall not say anything, haha. I'm not the one who should take the first step anyway!! And huns, you are to stop giggling. I've never thought about it, so it's not even remotely possible.
And since I'm not going to bed anytime soon, picturessssssss!! So I can save myself the trouble of describing updates of my life to any bo liao person who bothers to know. WARNING: I'M BORING. DON'T BLAME ME IF URE BORED. Hugeload of photos coming up, suck your bandwidth agan!!
My grandma's bdae!!
wheeeeeeee~
the not-so-kid kids
the accountant and the accountant-to-be. SIGH...
Failing miserably at the mtv hair flying effect
my sis trying to be national geographic's afghan girl!! haha
and we even tried to make a tube top for her hehh
ahem. ya... we were bored.Jw's 21st
us!
Ohyes, that reminds me. I WANT A DAUGHTER! NOW!! jw's niece is just so cute!! I feel like eating her up. Jaekay's 21st
us 3 
cup tower hurhur. I really had lotsa fun!! Please understand, I've never attended a single macs party before that day. Yeah I got no childhood.Chu San
wenyi's place
haoyi's place. look at huns's damn cock face!!
darling's placeNTUCO Concert 07
This is the biggest group group photo I have, I haven't gotten the main big one.
Practice room. wheee~
mei nv! I look like a ghost creeping up from behind her. Guess how many guys I made jealous just cos of this? HAHA
the percussion girls! Minus jinx. Stupid girl nv come back with us.
ahha, us three.
Committee!! Whoever took this had really shaky hands! This is the least shaky one alr. No, not I take one.
I'm so glad concert is over, and regardless of what happened, I think we all deserve a pat on our backs. *pat myself* HAHA. =D
Ohoh, and did I tell you my mediaplayer is damn chio now!! Look look!!
Pweeeetty flower rite!!! And when I click on the butterfly, it becomes like this:
Even chioer!! yayyy =D-.- I just realized The Black Parade has been on repeat for a long time. Toodles!
she uttered nonsense at 6:26 AM
