end of holidays
Friday, December 30, 2005
i'M GoNnA IrRiTaTe tHe hElL OuT Of eVeRyOnE, HoW FuN! HaHa wHeN's tHe lAsT TiMe u rEaD StH LiKe tHiS?? wAhAhAhAhA OhMaN OkAy tHiS Is dAmN TiRiNg.
haha gif up le. anyway.
Camp's finally over, my fone's finally with me. I have to admit, I can't live without it anymore. Which is actually quite sad, come to think of it. And I brought back with me a lazy malau, courtesy of haoyang, and a
tsetse voice, which they exploited to make me sing "harlowww~~" at partyworld just now.
Why is it that everyone always uses the "it's a long story" excuse to escape from telling someone sth? If you don't want me to know, just say so. I'll understand. From now onwards, if anyone says that to me, I'm going to reply "I've got time". Force u to tell me. wahhaha
Hmm. Found out stuff the past week things I'm not that ecstatic abt knowing, but it's better to know it earlier than to keep hoping. AND!! i'm gg to pull my hair out choosing electives. Modules which I am interested in, either they don't offer it this sem, or the timing is way off. Like friday night 5-8pm. Modules which are non-examinable, vacancies are all ZERO. Congrats man. Registration's tmr, and I still don't know wad I want, nor do I know what to do in the first place. I win liao.
School is starting next week le, so fast. So many things to do, so little time. I promised myself to buck up on my studies, and I will. Although next sem will be even busier then the past one, I still will. That's one of my resolutions for the new year, you guys just wait and see. And I promise I'll try to stop thinking so much and just let everything be. (ooh that rhymed :D)Me myself and I. Think positive, think positive, think positive....*chants*
I think The Promise is one of the most retarded shows on earth. Why does nic tse speak like he just took up mandarin? Just because that korean guy speaks like that doesn't mean he has to follow. And that, as angl says,
seamonkey-like creature girl has hair which defies gravity, a super white face (i won't even say pale), and a long white flowy gown to boot. Comparable to HP4's ugly sea mermen. Can't rmb their names.
Fingers crossed for darling. Hope to hear good news soon. :) Happy new sem to everyone.
she uttered nonsense at 1:52 AM
mooooo
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Third post in a day, I must be mad. Or bored. haha.
So studying food chemistry came in handy, I guessed it right. But then again, I don't want darling to have that!! NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! *prays hard*
I dunno wad i'm doing, waiting online, appearing offline. Must be that stupid jinx influence me to be so voyeuristic. and why am i waiting, when i noe nth will come out of it. whyyyyy
I'm afraid to meet up again. I'm afraid to confirm what i suspect. I'm sorry, if I have to lie to avoid it. But i'm................really scared.
she uttered nonsense at 3:31 AM
my reindeer friend
karen cracks me up! here's a christmas carol, tweaked a little. Sorry karen, couldn't resist putting it up, even if it makes the both of us look really bo liao!! we make a good change-song-lyrics team!! wahahhaha :)
Karen the red nose reindeer
Had a very ugly nose
And if you ever saw it
You would also say it's gross
All of her other dear friends
Used to laugh and call her names
They never let poor Karen
Join in any reindeer games
Then one foggy christmas eve
Her friend kel came to say
Karen with your nose so bright
Won't you come give me a fright
she uttered nonsense at 2:36 AM
xmas day
It isn't so much the way things are going, as much as the way things are supposed to happen. I'd like to find a bit of them in me, and I'd like to find a bit of my old self in me.
I used to know this person, someone down-to-earth, someone nice and friendly. I say 'used to' cos I don't know this person no more. I'd like to call this person back and say Hi how's you? but i can't cos this person....let's just say isn't around anymore. And it ain't that easy.
This year is the first in 8 years that I didn't snail mail any christmas cards out. And i don't feel the christmas spirit; maybe it's cos I'm busy, maybe it's cos there's just too much on my mind. If noone had asked me wad my christmas day plans were, it would just come and go and I'd forgot it altogether. Is it too late to send cards to just the few people? hmm. Ohwells, as zq said last year, there's 15 days of christmas so technically it wouldn't be considered late.
Everyone wants a little warmth this christmas, but what everyone wants, not everyone gets. I want a lil house in a lil corner of the world, with lil bunnies hopping ard and lil cows mooing away, with only a lil laptop to keep me in touch with the rest of the world. But I won't be getting what i want anytime soon, would I? so.
Alright, I should stop being such a downer on such a
wonderful holiday. Merry Christmas to one and all.
she uttered nonsense at 1:25 AM
O_O
Sunday, December 18, 2005
omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg
I just found out sth........makes me feel even more loserfied now. I'm convinced everyone is doing great without me, soaring off, leaving me behind. Congratulations.
i feel like puking.
she uttered nonsense at 1:02 AM
me myself and I
Saturday, December 17, 2005
It started when I realized how much fun everyone was having without me, while I was wallowing in shitty self-pity. I thought long and hard, wad was it, just wad was it that was causing me to not be in the best of moods? Was it cos of being psed numerous times by numerous groups, or was it cos deep down I know I don't really have anyone I can immediately turn to anymore? I don't know. And till now, I still don't know. What I do know is, from now on, I'm going to adopt a me attitude. Sorry if this sounds really selfish, but I figure it's for the better. At least till I finally learn to accept things the way they are. I used to get easily affected by what was happening around me, what was happening to my friends, and my relationship with my friends. It used to be that my friends came before anything else, even before my family, even before myself.
It's time for all these to change. And look at my blog title, how apt. As though I predicted my own future.
Sometimes people choose to tell certain stuff only to certain people, regardless of how long or close the relationship is. And for good reason. I guess the most obvious reason is cos tt person is somehow involved in the problem or situation, or if not, it's probably cos......i dunno, affinity or sth. hah. I just realized how ironical I sound. If you don't understand what I'm talking abt, stop guessing and ask me if you want to. It's not about you.
Doubt if you'll read this, but anyways. hey you who made me so worried when u cried and msged me in the middle of the night, please don't be so sad. I know i'm going to contradict what I just said, but I'm always here for you. I dunno if you want anyone else to know, so I shall not name names. But things'll improve. It'll take some time, but we'll both learn to accept the things which we cannot change in our own situation. And it
will be better. I promise you. And my ear is waiting for you to bend. huggs too. :)
she uttered nonsense at 2:20 AM
incoherent post
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Don't think she'll read this, but who cares.
Erin: Sucha long time since I last saw u, and I forgotten just how much fun we had before. I'm so glad we're still on the same wavelength, and I'm so happy that u think the same way as me abt---well, lotsa stuff. Don't go and have too much ermm sweets okay? Not good for your health and mental being. hahahah
I've identified what, or rather, which makes me feel the way I do. I tried avoiding it, and I didn't feel that bad at the end of the day. Still, as I got on the bus home, I accidentally let my thoughts wander, but I refused to give in to them. However, it was strangely comforting that a stranger, someone somewhere, once sat on the same seat I occupied, feeling the same way I do. At the back of the seat in front of me, vandalized in liquid paper, were the bolded words "Fark La".
Good to know that you aren't the only one eh?
On a lighter note, I just cut my hair!! Now short liao. Not even shoulder length lorr. haha. But it feels good. And my bro is hilarious, he spent like dunno how long coming up with the perfect way to break a certain news to my sis so that we can slowly look at her expression change from shock to suspicion to absolute horror!! Then we can laugh till we pengz. Ohman, I can't wait for friday when she gets back!! haahahah oh and friday's the day the new tv is coming!! yayyy
she uttered nonsense at 12:35 AM
scared of chocolate
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Been babysitting the past few days. I can only say that little kids look cute and are cute to play with, for one day max. After that, they get on your nerves. Like, get lost already. hehh so evil right.
Had great fun today at fullerton meeting up with that small part of the class, and i realize i really miss the jc days and the old class. Let's arrange for another gathering another day okay? And this time let's try to get more pple to come. hahha. and to my dearest girl, i love you love you love you. Although we suck at toilet shots. hahahha :)
Things can actually be much better than they seem, if you learn to look at them in a different light. I haven't exactly learnt how to, but I had a close insight of what being optimistic means.
And to the person whose handwriting i can recognize, thank you, although isn't it abit early? hahaah. You're great, did you know that?
she uttered nonsense at 4:01 AM
