Wednesday, November 29, 2006
I'm so bored that I keep blogging. HAHAHAHA
Today was accessories day. After Happy Feet-ing, went shopping and got myself 2 new pairs of earrings, a bracelet and a hugeass retro hairband. Sakae for lunch, Crystal Jade for dinner, and lychee martini at Balcony for 'chill'ing (cos some people are just so lazy to walk back to indochine) haha. Then cabbed home and continued amazing race all the way until now. Town air never smelled so good, and it's been a freaking long time since I last took neoprint! Old school, but so fun!! heee.
Step up and vivo next week, for more clothes hunting! And it'll be my first time there - don't call me song okay. haha
Whoooo~ yeahh. This is the life, man. (:
PS: If you're considering watching it, Happy Feet's a pretty dumb show. But the small penguins are kinda cute, so.
she uttered nonsense at 4:46 AM
Monday, November 27, 2006
*sniff* I thought this day would never come. *sniff* Did you miss me? I missed you. I missed you, my dear holidays.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
OMG u know how long I've been studying? NON STOP FOR MORE THAN TWO BLOODY WEEKS!! I seldom feel so hardworking. Not in my uni life, not until now. OMGOMGOMG, i dunno to be proud of myself or not. See, tonight I feel abit lost, not having to read anything at all. OMG. Pardon my OMGing, but I really cannot help it. OMOMGOMG. hahahahh and Please let all that effort translate into results, please. Thank you.
Today my doc was saying, 'Do you want me to run any other tests since I've already taken your blood sample?' I was thinking, uhoh, what else is wrong with me.... 'Like HIV for example?'
-.- No thank you doc, that one I'm pretty sure I'll test negative. haha.
I know I should try to contain my excitement cos there's just so many others who's still being held captive by the exam monster, but I can't help it!! So sue me. =D
It's over, it's over now move over, it's our turn now it's over, the game's shut down, sorry! heehee. Time for detachment.
she uttered nonsense at 8:33 PM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
I think it's quite sad when one puts in so much effort yet it doesn't translate into results. Maybe that's why sometimes I'm so slack, cos I'm afraid to know just how stupid I really am. Cos if I put in effort yet I don't do well, then I know I'm really dumb. haha. yeahhh I'm good at making excuses for my slackness. But ahwells. It's not the end of the world ya... You've still got a long way to go in our wonderfully crafted education system. And it really is not bad already... Jiayou. (:
Evanescense's songs are strangely comforting.
I haven't studied anything at all today!! But I went for lesson so issit counted? HAHA so freaking lazy. lalalalalaaaaaaaa
One more, one more, one more, one more, one more............. *chants*
she uttered nonsense at 12:08 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
My stomach's churning, my heart's pounding, and I have no idea why. It can't be the nervousness of taking 201 cos that'll only happen earliest tmr. haha. weird.
And I'm getting uglier and fatter, my hair is all dropping out, my pimply skin's peeling, and I can't study for nuts. ):
Stupid you, stupid me, stupid exams.
Now's not the best time to ask me for advice, cos if you tell me sth like 'I feel like committing suicide', I'd probably tell you 'Please do.' So if you do find me telling you absurd things like that, please ignore me and please don't go and jump, thank you very much.
Hmm well personally I think I can have quite a bad temper haha. Maybe you don't know cos I only easily get impatient at the people who are dearest to me. Like my family. Oops, I need to learn to be a better person. I always seem to abuse those who matter the most. =x But then again, so when I lose my cool in front of you, be happy cos you actually mean alot to me ok? haha =D
Back to studies. *toot*
she uttered nonsense at 12:29 PM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
/edit. Decided to move it there. Too risky to leave it here haha.3 down, 2 more to go. And I think I should have bought toto today, considering all that happened earlier. Too bad jinx can't buy it for me, she's not
lucky enough. HAHA.
she uttered nonsense at 3:42 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
It's 845 and I'm awake! Just can't get back to sleep.
I feel......... strange. Uneasy, maybe? =/
Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't trust you. It's just...... I never thought I would tell any of you what happened, or is happening. It makes it this much harder to do the disappearing act.Think exams.
she uttered nonsense at 8:57 AM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
That day you asked why I took that, and I said cos I fancied a challenge. HA. There are so many better ways to challenge myself. Well I just didn't find it necessary to say the real reason which doesn't matter anymore. Yesyes, I'm dumb.
I'm surprised who comes by here. Hi sweetie. *waves* And thanks.
After talking to jinx last night, I feel much better already. Everything will be fine, yes? (:
she uttered nonsense at 11:15 AM
Friday, November 17, 2006
It's times like these that I get so shaken up and I realize just how fragile life is. And just how old my parents are already. Tonight, I think I finally had a glimpse of what real fear is.
I want to be selfish, and say that I want them to be by my side always.
What matters the most.
I'm so scared.
)':
she uttered nonsense at 2:45 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Weird. I thought I posted one more entry in between.
I didn't mean to see it. But oh so that's it. Still say never. Still assure me it's not. Pants on fire. Should I be glad now then? I'll try. Though I find it increasingly hard to ------ . And about that, so you
have been doing what I thought you were doing huh. Well suay for you. Wavelength similarities. And you, I hope you know what you're getting yourself into.
I need to learn to wash my hands off this, and fast.
Statistical multiplexing, Dijkstra's algorithm, spanning tree, congwin, MAC layer. SDLC, flowchart, REA modelling, AIS controls, MIS. Double IT, double days. HELPPPPP.
I've got a whole series of stuff planned for after exams OH I CAN'T WAIT!! =D
PS: Someone tell me, should I just send in my application for susep-smu? I've done all my 'research', all I need is to fill it and send it up. I need a breather from anti-you. Although obligation and responsibilities is another matter. bahh.
she uttered nonsense at 2:50 AM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Just one post to announce that
MY HUNS GOT HER LICENSE ALREADY!!!And on her first try some more, *sniff* I'm so proud of her.
I also want!!! But at the rate I'm going, I doubt I can. Not on my first try anyway. ): My instructor laughed at me say I qian2 zhuang4 hou4 zhuang4 while parallel parking. Stupid small space, stupid poles. HMPH.
she uttered nonsense at 12:43 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006
Finally, my last presentation for the sem is tomorrow. I can't wait to get everything over and done with, and finally be able to sit down and study properly. Though that leaves me less than 5 days to cover at least 3 modules. I am so dead. ):
Tonight feels strangely surreal. No jinxy's cock comments every few minutes, or keety's lively-but-annoying presence. Even beat has gone home. Noone to floss teeth with me. Hmm... I wonder what's going on in there right now.
It's all in the head, isn't it. What you choose to believe or think. Sometimes when you see certain things, when the facts are right in your face, you still believe that it's not true. Yet when you don't see anything at all, you choose to believe otherwise. Who said seeing is believing? Have you been doing what I think you've been doing? haha. Sounds so bananainpyjamas-ish.
Are you thinking what I'm thinking, B1? haha.
When will you realize it's already time to let go? It has been, a pretty long time back. Just that maybe you never noticed. You never did notice, did you? Just like you never did notice anything about her, never seem to bother. Seem? More like you really didn't bother at all. Now everything's changed, can't you tell? What's the use of being the person you never were now? A case of too little, too late.
Life's a bitch. So what do you do when life makes a fool out of you? As they say, when life hands you lemons, make lemonade. Make the best of the worst situation. Everything MUST have something good about it, right?
right?Oh oh, it's my huns driving test tmr, everyone who sees this please wish her good luck ya!! If you can catch her before her test, that is.
she uttered nonsense at 2:32 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006
I think you're being very selfish by saying all these, knowing full well the situation I'm in now. ): I know you're in a dilemma, but to me, to be able to be in that dilemma in the first place is like giving me a Lexus and a BMW and telling me that I can only choose between one of them.
And you're exasperating me, you won't listen to anything I say, so what for even ask for my opinion? I give you 10 reasons why I choose A, and you'd just repeat your one reason why A should not be chosen.
Sometimes I feel like just saying, please don't tell me anymore. I don't want to hear. If you think I'm just talking nonsense, and you're obviously not making me feel good by telling me all these, then let's just do each other a favour and stop this, shall we?
...
Stupid bloody finger. Stupid bloody fone. Of all pple.
It's like, finally got through this while, and just because of one stupid mistake, one bloody slip, I feel as though it's all coming back to haunt me again.
Why do I allow you to dominate my mind, why??
I'm so pissed at myself. So damn pissed.
...
Let's talk happy things. I've decided, my short term goal car will still be an orange nissan march!! Think I can get partial sponsorship from daddy dearest? hahahahh nahh dun think so. And my long term goal car for now is the new lexus LS460!! omg i'm going to hyperventilate, such a classy and futuristic car! Don't care what keety says, I insist that Lexus is better than BM. HMPH.
What's up with my sudden love for cars?????
she uttered nonsense at 12:32 AM
Friday, November 03, 2006
I'm home!! wheeee. Mind you, it's thursday night!! Or fri morn rather. I can NEVER emphasize enough just how much I love my home!! lalalalaaaaa. Although this means exams are just round the corner. In fact in less than 2 weeks time, to be precise. HOW!!
Me and huns have concluded that when we're busy with our work, we are NEVER going to ask yiing what she's doing. Cos she's always slacking!! no no, in her words, she's de-stressing. Tuesday go swimming and JP for dinner, wed go watch movie, still not enough. I met her at crystal jade this afternoon! And she was going KTV after that la!! *faint* And don't ask me what I was doing there ok, I was just there for lunch before going home, not SLACKING hor hahahaha =D.
Look at
this and
this! Boingboing's fun.
Super long and whiny reminiscing post ahead. It's boring if you dunno what I'm talking about, so you've been warned!!
It's vv and nini's bdae these 2 days, and I suddenly really miss them alot.
I miss those days back in sn. Things were never so complicated or fake, and I felt safe. When friends said 'I'll be there for you' and you know they meant it. When gossiping about others was really for silly fun, not with heavy evil intentions attached. Where taking a leisurely walk around school usually meant 'let's have a heart-to-heart talk, girlfriend'. Where walking down the canteen to find a table easily took more than 10min cos you'll be waving 'hi' no less than 5 times, and stopping at least once for
social updating.
I'd reach school by 0655 through avenue2, my dad having dropped my bro off at cat high before dropping me at sch. I'd walk by the
sunken forum, no, now it's just the
forum, pass the D&T room and say hi to mr ng if he was there, then up the stairs beside the pe dept. Crossing from the new extension block (it was forever called new extension) to the school block through the level with jinx's 3hope aircon classroom. Climbing up all the way to the highest floor to reach the sec4 level and to my classroom right beside the toilet. The one with the super nice, make-everyone-look-slim mirror that some other class koped for a day before we koped it back haha. Miss hipx hopx peiyi would without fail be tying her hair in front of that mirror and when I entered the classroom everyone would be so hardworking. Diligently copying homework. And hoping that it would rain so we wouldn't have to scuttle down for morning assembly. Oh and I rmb there would be music playing through the PA system, wasn't there? And sometimes we found it irritating especially when we were trying to catch some sleep. But it was special.
Monday assemblys usually meant eating into the next period, and if
xiao4 zhang3 was in the mood that day, we all had to dance every single dance there was, and I rmb once it dragged all the way until recess time. Family dance, mass dance, primary calistanics, and every single line dance. We used to complain and whine while dancing, but now that we have all graduated, we get excited doing it together when we meet fellow sn pple. Especially the family dance. That sense of identity and belonging to a school is something I doubt others can ever understand. It was pretty fun, wasn't it, and the teachers would get a headache about thinking how to catch up with the syllabus due to so many missed lessons. And the assembly would be dragged even longer with the never-ending announcements haha.
The balcony was usually occupied by whoever was feeling down that day and wanted to have some alone-time with their bestie. And it was messy cos of files spilling out of the blue and yellow lockers who nobody bothered to pack till exam time came. But the balcony meant alot to me. Especially the balcony of my sec3 class. I won't forget the not-so-platonic erm talks, heh.
Morning PEs were fun, with the volleyball PE elective that I took and -wad was his namE?? The short male pe teacher tt nini and I forever laughed at. OHOH!! Mr phee? fee? or sth. hahaha. There was one lesson I happened to be standing beside him, and nini couldnt stop laughing cos he was shorter than me!! Oops. =x hahah. And we were at the age where....... let's just say curiousity and general knowledge met at a crossroad, and with further
teachings from my bro, I'm surprised we survived PE without getting scolded at all, considering we weren't exactly speaking very softly and he probably heard every single thing we said!! HAHAHAHA
Recess time meant gerie getting all hyped up and ready to dash to the canteen for orange bowl. Remember the super obvious-yet-cannot-do-anything-about-it bulge in our pinafore pockets that the prefects had to pretend to overlook? Then for a while the school decided to allow eating in class and gerie walked, no no, sashayed her way out of the canteen past the prefects with her tupperware in tow. HAHA.
Most of the time, recess was taken up for meetings and I rmb being glad that my dear president was from my class and we could have mini meetings in class without having to take up too much precious free time. Then it would be a mad rush to reach back to class before the bell rang, especially if it was maths period after that.
Maths was hilarious, once we got used to Mrs Soh's language and teaching. She'd 'throw us down to test for gravity' if we failed a test, or kenna scolded 'your eyes got parallax error ' if we didn't copy correctly. If we didn't have the blackboard wiped clean for her by the time her lesson started, she'd just write over the old writings and we'd see a mess of chalk. And if anyone came back late from recess she'd make the latecomer sit on the floor at the door throughout the lesson. And you can't complain that you can't see if not you die. hahahahah. Ah, my huns knows, she kenna many times. HAHA.
And when lessons ended, we'd all hang around school still just for the heck of it. Gossiping, finding friends, walking around, just basically whiling the time away. Till the late evenings. But it was so fun. And I had vv to go back with me on the long 76 trip home after that. We would gossip till we were tired, and fall asleep after that. I'd always wake up just in time to alight (i dunno why so qiao, but i NEVER missed my stop), and I would wake v up to say goodbye to her.
Ahh, those times.
What a freaking long post. I'm being irritatingly nostalgic these days. blablablaaaa. I shall take comfort in the fact that v's goin to force us to have a girly sleepover at her newly renovated house this hols. Just the 4 of us.
Happy 20th my two dearies. I really miss y'all.
she uttered nonsense at 12:17 AM
