narcissistic pleasure

long, long day

Saturday, September 24, 2005

it was a long day.

but the day got longer.

growlll. haven eaten a single shit since lunchtime. which was ydy. no, i'm not on a crash diet or sth. sighs. slept at 3am for like 2 hours??before got woken up.

and in a few hrs time, i need to pack up and leave.

i'm drained, burnt out. fatigue is kicking in, not just physically, but mentally too. i dunno if it's the exhaustion talking; i'm considering stuff i shouldnt be thinking of in the first place.

some things i want to say, but can't. not here anw. jk is sleeping. duH. haix.

woman, i'm so sorry i'm always not in the best of moods when talking to u. but ure the one i think of when i haf troubles. and ure the one i can be myself to. pple expect me to be oh-so-happy all the time, but u noe i do haf my moody times too. which, esp these few weeks, has been occuring almost daily. i feel bad. i'm sorry i always rant and rave when ure online, i'm sorry i dun initiate calling u up, i'm sorry it seems as though i treat anyone else better than i do u. reading ur blog and thinking abt many things, i am slowly aware that u haf ur own life to lead now. new frens, new activities, new commitments, and especially, prospective *ahem* (yes, QC passed). i'm exhilarated for u, i dun want to always be the person poor u always haf to waste time consoling. dun tell me i'm not wasting ur time, i mean i noe i prob am the only person u always worry for on msn. and........
i dunno where this is gg, i just tot i wanted to tell u.

she uttered nonsense at 5:54 AM