narcissistic pleasure

3 down, 1 to go

Friday, November 11, 2005

-long entry today-
wheww. finally found time to come online. so fast, before i knew it, 3 down and 1 more to go.
well, papers haven't been good, in fact, they're the opp, esp today's. hmm. but i'm not one to cry over spilt milk, esp academic-wise, so... *shrugs* anw i'm mentally prepared to study stats with jinx next sem alr.

i'm amazed wad stress and failure-to-meet-expectations can really do to one. had to pretend like i was used to it, but it was pretty much sth new for me. i mean, i noe she often does that, but because of stress?? seriously, i din noe results meant that much to her. on the other hand, when i was so freakingly calm ydy, it was pretty worrying too. it goes to show just how much i value exams. woohoo. this is bad.

and yayy finally FINALLY got to breathe town air after a gazillion years. went straight after dumping that disgustingly thick, dirty green book with xiu. swensens for lunch, den movie and shopping. sticky chewy chocolate!! super sinful, super shuang. and the girl acting as emily rose is freakingly good. sheesh. i watched the entire movie while peering through the top of my sweater. bought hairbands and rubberbands, and a new wallet! damn satisfying. and so qiao my stats grpmate was sitting rite in front of me in the theatre. see? destress activities are necessary after a stats exam.

the stupid crazy frog song is in my head. tue, yiing sent to me, so i was listening to it. wed, heard it on xiu's comp. thur, friendly neighbour blasted the song over her speakers. how not to be brainwashed, u tell me?? grr. haha further brainwashing rite now, listening to it while typing. ohya, and i think the chinese cockroach version is damn lame.

now let me complain.
next time u want to diss anybody, rmb not to gossip abt tt person to another through msn. u nv noe who's on the other end. i noe u can't please everybody, so dun tell me to ignore, but bloody hell who are u to criticize me when i have only spoken to u a grand total of 3 sentences in my entire life???? and wad lousy basis of urs - to judge someone's character by looking at their nick??? i din add u in msn, YOU did. i hate adding pple whom i don't ever talk to; it only contributes to the bulkiness of the list.

ok, fine, i do want everyone to have a favourable impression of me. i noe i'm not perfect, but i'd like to belive that i'm not that evil as a person after all. that somehow or other, pple will be able to take in my faults while identifying my plus points. i was really qt upset tt day. better (or worse) still, the person STILL doesn't noe wad happened. and i figure he wouldn't really care anyway. but it did affect me, and i am angry at myself for letting it affect me.

perceptual biasness. halo effect comes in when u have limited information of an individual but have to fulfill the need to identify that person under a certain category in your mental model, so as to have a certain set of perceptions of the person. that's if i rmb correctly from ob. ohwells.

on a happier note, booking out date is next wed after last paper!! wheeeeee~~~ haven been home for 2 weeks, missing everybody and everyone! and hp officially opening one day after!! but. err. haiz. everyone all sure gg with bf/gf one lorr. hmm. see lar i knew it, i- *forget it. nvm.

meanwhile, i'll be hoping that everyone finds all the papers difficult, so that i dun end up at the bottom of the bell curve.

she uttered nonsense at 11:57 PM