narcissistic pleasure

update

Friday, January 20, 2006

Upcoming concert's making everyone so tensed, so stressed up, so easily irritable. I don't even dare to crap much anymore, in case I accidentally step on anyone's toes. I'd just like to say that isnt the purpose of holding this for everyone to have fun and to bring enjoyment to others? Of course we do have certain expectations to meet, certain goals to surpass, but if all these ever does is to make everyone so pissed off, then why bother holding right? I'm not trying to act oh-so-philosophical here, all I want to do is to tell pple to not take things too seriously, you know, that you can actually accomplish tasks without finding fault with everyone and the world. And maybe even have fun at doing it.

And don't get me wrong and think that I don't care about this at all. I do. I may seem as though I'm so happy all the time, but I do worry about my own task too. Just because I don't sulk and get angry all the time doesn't mean that I don't care or that I'm not doing anything. Every night, or morning, before I go to sleep, I mentally tick off the things which I have to do the next day. I just choose not to announce to everyone the things I'm doing, things which are ongoing, things which are pending, things which are simply stuck at the back of my head. Because I know that I'm not the only one who is busy; others are too, and the only thing I can do is to grin and bear it. And also try to enjoy doing it. You know what they say about simple pleasures, these days, the only form of relaxation I get, is the silly night time self-entertainment and self-deprecating humour that me and jinx engage in. And it helps; it's the only time of the day when I can finally go weak with laughter and just be myself without worrying if others think we're slacking off our work.

In this time when, as jk said, CO is our major and accounting becomes our minor, my roomie is the only thing keeping me sane. I love my roomie much much. But don't tell her k? Her ego is humongous enough already. :)

she uttered nonsense at 3:10 AM