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dreaming....................

Friday, February 10, 2006

Arghhhhhh everything's repeating itself all over again. STOP IT I SAY STOP IT!!!! asshat.

msn's being problematic again, it's the infiniteth time that I'm getting dc-ed. Sick of trying to sign in over and over and over, but I gotta get things done. wth.

In kinda fked-up mood these days...trying not to show it yet probably causing others to feel fked-up too. sigh.

Quiz ard the corner, dunno wad to do esp since I know naught abt that module. And yes, I got noone to blame but myself.

Went back sn today, miss sec sch life loads. I so wanted to put on my blue pinafore and become young again. I see the pink-purple-yellow colour of the school, and I miss the blue-white combi during my time. I see the security counter and the guards strictly getting everyone to sign in, and I miss the homeliness and welcomeness of the sch I used to feel. I see people I don't recognize at all, and I miss the time when I walked down the canteen and saw familiar faces all round.

I want to go back to the time when even if you don't really study for the test, you know that you won't do that badly. I want to go back to the time when the teachers were in charge of everything, and all you had to worry about was getting approvals. I want to go back to the time when you could attend classes and just listen to the teacher talk, and not have to spend half the time worrying if the teacher had remembered to tick once on his class participation record for that discussion you initiated earlier. I want to go back to the time where, no matter what happened, at the end of the day, you know you will get to go back to the comfort and shelter of home.

Growing up sucks, doesn't it?

Well, I can never turn back the clock, so.....back to reality. *snap*

Lunch with wj today was fantastic. I love hearing her ever-interesting-gossips and watching her silly antics. And her making a fool of herself always and trying very hard to cover it up at the same time. It's great to know that although I don't meet up that often with her, we're still great friends and there's nothing we can't talk about. That aunty's my after-lunch-grocery shopping-khaki. Don't get upset over hall stuff alright? It ain't worth it. :)

she uttered nonsense at 2:16 AM