narcissistic pleasure

holidayS!!!

Saturday, April 29, 2006

WAHAHHAHAHAHA omfg I LOVE MY YUMI!!!!!! muacksss to u too sweetie!!! :D

ahha damn. using vulgar words more and more freely these days... must be ahpek's influence. jiayou ahpek!!!! 2 more papers nia!! ahah. gg to miss him when he graduates... :( everyone, awwwwwwwwww. hahaha

can't think straight, brain's crammed full of info. must slowly release....and that's wad the hols are for!!! heee

just got back from cycling at ecp.... been a long time since i've been there, feels good to just let the wind blow against my face and not give a damn to the world. It got me thinking abt alot of stuff that i postponed thinking due to the exams.

i feel selfish. not just to u, but to u too. i think it's unfair of me, and i hate myself for that. sometimes i wonder what would happen if nth happened, would i be happier? would i stop thinking stupid thoughts? would i wonder abt this or that? would i irritate u as i do now?

To think i used to dislike being like that. i still talk to them, yes, but it's different. at least to me it is. maybe cos inside, i noe wads gg on. i cant help it, circumstances change, yet deep within me, i feel as though i want to join them back, to bring things back to status quo. but, wad is the status quo really?

i feel like.......i'm drifting off to one side alr. but you noe, mind and body different. think one thing, do another. 'im sorry i just cant do this', you say, but after that wad do u go and do? homosapiens are such contradictory characters. or issit only me?

so..........have i turned into ur worst nightmare yet?

always be careful what u wish for. cos when it comes, can u really handle it?

she uttered nonsense at 7:02 PM