narcissistic pleasure

Sunday, September 17, 2006

I love you jiakai. Let you, me and jinx be a threesome les shall we, and guys can go and die. hahah. Ok ltr andrew and yw scold me.

w says I'm too naive, too trusting. Probably. I guess I should have considered the possible implications, but I didn't. And it's my fault. Maybe I'm still in the old world, where I thought I could just vent my frustrations and unload my complains on people. From now on, I'm going to keep my bloody mouth shut, and smile at the world regardless.

My bro just said I'm girly and sissy for trying to wax my legs.
... Thank you very much. In case you haven't realized, I'm a girl.
-.- chao grarrl. hahahahah

I'm starting to be very slack!! pfffft. Disgusted with myself, but I just can't push myself anymore! Sad. :( And taxation is no longer fun, it's sibeh stressful. It's like law but closed book. bahhhhh.

They say it's pantang to say this, but I'm so proud of myself that I can't help it! Last lesson I didn't stall the car at all!! haha (:

This weekend is supposed to be clearup time! But things aren't going as planned. Necessary elements are MIAing!!

I shun cos I don't want. I don't want cos I'm afraid. I'm afraid cos I've been through, and I didn't exactly come out unscathed, to say the least. jk says it takes time, and I have to admit it does. Once bitten twice shy. And forever more.

解脱

爱是不夜城回忆像星辰
热泪越沸腾我越感觉有点冷
变了心的人越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨阳光替房间开了灯

想若结局一样又何苦再想
伤若让人成长我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔我总会实现一个梦

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我

I've been getting a bit of it recently, and that's a good sign. Slowly, surely. As james's nick will say, ---- --.

she uttered nonsense at 3:01 PM