narcissistic pleasure

Monday, October 30, 2006

woots~

Everytime I finish doing a project I feel so accomplished and knowledgeable. Ask me, ask me!! Anything about Singtel and accounting packages. woohoooooooooooooooo HAHAH

Now's 0510, gotta pack up my stuff and still got tax to read for tmr. I need to wake up at 0615 which is in another hour's time......... so nahh shall not sleep. I WILL LAST TILL TMR NIGHT MUAHAHAHHAHA~ *power*

That reminds me. How scary it is to take public transport early in the morning as I did last monday. 530 and already got so many people in the bus! Can you believe it?! I think I took the first bus which came by my house bus stop but it was already pretty crowded by then, considering the time. But the point is! Except for the army and police guys in uniform, they were mostly those ahpeks and they had this lau tiko look. Any FEMALE that came onboard were subjected to visual molestation (I shall give them the benefit of the doubt and not use rape here), regardless of age. Serious!! Even the ahma who came on board a few stops after was stared at from top to bottom by these se pekpeks in singlets and shorts. Who knows what was going through their minds. SCARY.

So many things to do, so lil time!! *scuttles off*

Note to DAVID SIA: don't say anything about SLEEP, or I'll SLAP YOU. *glares very hard*

she uttered nonsense at 5:15 AM

Friday, October 27, 2006

My memory is failing me. Or issit that there's just too many things to remember, that I end up not remembering anything at all? haha.

Can I ask? Did you agree just to get me? So that you can make my life an even bigger mess than it is? hmm........... No no, I'm just curious.

ladidaa~

You know why I asked that? Talking into the wee hours even though I've got morning lessons the next day. Qoo-kee was hoping I'd force it out of you. But after all that was said, I'm getting pretty sure that she and uncle's wrong. Do I care, am I bothered? I dunno. I don't think so. I just hope no harm's done. Haha.

I want to gossip about good lump here but considering my msn is being scrutinized every single moment by a certain someone who's name can do alliterations(HAHA), I shall not. (:

wheee~

Panic attack!! This weekend will be rush-all-projects-weekend. AHHH!!! And on a separate note, I think my driving's improved this week! Or at least I think so, even though my instructor may not agree. haha!

Ohoh!!! bestie!! guess wad. Do you rmb who's my AHEM crush back in sn? Dunno why I suddenly thought of it, but it just occured to me today. Got the same name as Lord Voldemort, if you get what I mean!! HAHAHAHAHAH. How interesting right!! BUT DON'T SAY WHO'S MY CRUSH OR I'LL KILL U PERSONALLY. hahahahh

Being at home makes me high, and best of all, my parents are back today!!! yayness.

she uttered nonsense at 10:20 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Strangely melancholic tonight.

Didn't go back hall, cos... well. Funny how the brain works, to be able to link from one thing to another, to come up with a certain conclusion or decision. Regardless, sorry sn, think you know and understand, hope you had a wonderful time with the rest, happy 21st. (:

I want to make it through the rain.

Actually, more importantly, I want to make it through the exams.

We were talking, and we were both wondering what the hell we had gotten ourselves into. I know I said I won't say I regret, but can at least think right? haha. ohwells. Shit happens.

Gotta wake up at 5-bloody-a-m tomorrow! My parents better be having a whale of a time in nepal, I'm gg sch by myself!! hahahha that sounds so brattish. Ok off I go try to devour abit of nej, before hitting the bed. Ahhh, aircon. Another good thing of staying at home.

wheeee~ somedays when i'm feeling totally bleaH like tonight, just seeing my bestie's nick pop orange on my conversation window makes me smile. (: But shhh dun tell anyone, if not huns will get jealous, and bestie's ego is going to inflate ten times. hahahaa

she uttered nonsense at 11:52 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

又来了。为什么都是这个时候呢？

怕是自己想太多，怕是自己惹出祸来的。但不这么做，心里也不好受。

有时候会想--，但我知道这也不公平。是我太过--了吗？需要的时候好，不需要的时候烦。

忽冷忽热。

奇怪，怎么会是繁体字呢。我们今天讲华语！哈哈，刘姥姥和严老师会为我感到骄傲。

不懂要怎么说，就胡说八道。拿捧捧摇！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

CMI le. Anyway I think ntu's tripE is so happening, what with sex change students and this vid that you've prob seen already that's making its rounds.

I shan't let people step all over me anymore, especially not guys. And I didn't. STRIKE ONE. HA! Down with disgusting projmates!! and huns, if I turn les how? Promise me you won't X me even if I ruin your anticrook campaign. hahahahahaha

she uttered nonsense at 8:17 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I'm in a damn whatever mood today. -- leaves me in a very foul mood. Maybe also cos my huns aint around to cheer me up or let me kp to.

Damage control. So necessary. Yet dunno what to do and how to do it. And you think to yourself, what the hell am I doing. Or crudely put, for fuck? Do you even give a damn? I overestimated, it isn't enough. And what was, isn't there anymore.

Studies aint everything, they say. But without that asshat honours, where do you even start? projects, quizzes, projects, quizzes. Maybe if you're lucky you get to do labs in between. How fun! And, and, if you're luckier, you may even get surprise tests!! Oh hit me, I've been sooooo lucky this sem!

...

I'm tired. Which is not good. Now's the time to pia and mug, yet I feel so drained. Feeling meaningless again. What, why, so. Going about day to day routine, keeping myself busy. Forcing, pushing. Not really knowing for what, and why.

I feel like MIA-ing and being uncontactable for a week. To take my own break and clear my thoughts. But it'll be so irresponsible of me. Sometimes I feel as though I'll never be able to close the chapter. Closing one thing, and maybe starting another. Or working hard for something I really believe in. Maybe that's where the problem lies. I don't seem to believe in anything anymore. Or I can't. I really want to. I want to feel motivated, I want to feel excitement and enthusiasm.

..... lifeless.

Someone please bring some meaning into my life.

she uttered nonsense at 11:12 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

YOU LIAR!!! ASSHOLE!!

Ahem. That was so buay shu nu but I cannot take it anymore. And I hate myself even more for letting you affect me.

eff you

she uttered nonsense at 11:39 PM

Hmm. Is it human nature to want what you can't have and don't want what is right at your doorstep? I waited for you to come online, but when you did, I got irritated by our conversation. hmmmm.....

Kee drove me home today, and it was hilarious!! Although I know I don't have the right to laugh at her yet. But she's really funny!! Tell me the truth, does ANYONE check blindspots anymore after passing the TP test?? And she still dare to scold me last time cos I forgot to stop at stop sign. wahahahah ok dun laugh at her, cos she may possibly get the car next sem and then I'll forever be in her debt. HAHAH meanwhile, I think I may have gotten my mum's CMI driving genes.... jialat.

In school, beat's like our mummy, and uncle lam is like our daddy. wheeeeee~

*jawdrops* YOU'RE TAKING DOUBLE SPEC!!! AND IN B&F SOMEMORE!! WADTHE-

okay, time to mug. It's REALLY time to mug. I'm so screwed la, I totally bombed my 201 quiz, and I don't have a good feeling for tax either. ahhh!!! *runs around like a headless chicken* how how how how how how

No how, can only du shu. shu nu yuqin is going to transform to yuqin the nerd. *transformation starting next week* I'm going to study in library with kee and uncle lam ok!!

Gosh, mediaplayer is playing the stupid tokyodrift song again. i wunner if u noe, 'ow they live in to-ky-o, if you seen it den u mean it den u noe u 'ave to go, fast and furiahhhhh, fast and furiahhhhhhhh

I've been looking at really interesting product websites these days, and I think what I really need is one of these. Or for Sudoku freaks, this will come in handy while doing your big business! hahahaha

I think I'm on the path already. No turning back. Looking forward, moving on. (: All I need to do is to continue the avoidance strategy. Strategy!! faint. BSC. Better go do my work now. tataaa~

she uttered nonsense at 12:45 AM

Friday, October 13, 2006

Free Hugs

For anyone who needs hugs, here's a nice heartwarming video. awwww

*hugs to all*

she uttered nonsense at 3:18 AM

.... I feel so much like a bloody nanny it's not funny. !#%(*@^*@

Well, no use getting worked up over this. I know there'll be more to come anyway, and not like I didn't expect all this shit when I agreed. Ahwells.

Let me introduce you to my huns!! *teehee*

j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
hi huns
yuqin says:
no
ure so disgusting
j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
huns dun say tt of me
yuqin says:
yucks
ure so disgusting!!!
haha
ok shit
tt's my face
hahahahahah
j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
shit on ur face?
no no i cant do tt to my huns
yuqin says:
PUI
j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
huns dun torture ur keyboard le
yuqin says:
ure so erxin!!
OMG
j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
dun type so hard
later ur finger pain
ok huns?
yuqin says:
stop ur huns!!
j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
muack muack
yuqin says:
omg
omg
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Yes, that's our chat log.. and there's more to come!! (don't understand nvm, internal joke haha)

j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
ohhooooo...
huns so knowlegeable
yuqin says:
hahahahahahahh
stopit
i beh tahan
YUCKS
j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
dun shy la huns
i msg u u also nv reply
i call u u also nv pick up
i beh tahan ur phone la huns
yuqin says:
OMG
i cannot take it
j i n g j i n t h e g r e a t . . . says:
u noe the sun yanzi song?
the honey bunny
hahahahha
it's written for u!

See how much staying in hall affects the brain? haha

huns huns huns~~

she uttered nonsense at 1:58 AM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Everything comes with something. How could I expect nothing to come out of it?
Why should I bother, why should I care so much about whether you do or you don't?

gabra. I dunno what my head is thinking sometimes.

It's a good choice. Avoid, better to avoid. Isn't it? It's too mentally taxing to pretend.

Just when I thought all my projects and presentations and quizzes are done for this period of time, a new project comes up. Darn! Though I think I'll get to go home early this week. heehee. I heart my home. (: That means I'll be free on friday. So I'll grab someone to watch movie with me HAH.

Ohya, although it's a lil late, happy one year, bestie. So fast right! I'm so happy for you (:

she uttered nonsense at 12:08 AM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

I don't find it funny anymore.
In fact, this is seriously getting on my nerves.
But who am I to say? Maybe to them, I'm like that too?
Is this yet again part of growing up?
Sak-kee.

Yo babe! *rolls eyes* Sheesh.

My cousin blogs abt his entire day, how interesting. To see him as a rebel student and probably those kind of student who's school time are spent in the principal's office.

To see a different side of everyone. Some shocking, some leaving me in awe, but all mostly insightful.

There I go again.
Sak-kee.

I don't want to be trapped in my own cage any longer. It's loserish and I'm disgusted with myself.

Why? Why?? Is it cos you can sense what's going to happen? So you avoid?
What are you trying to do?
Sak-kee.

Re------. To what extent does it become over?
The slow process, leading up to the final. Is it always true?
What good will it do to everyone?
Questions. Thoughts.
Will it be better if I leave, to just remain in my own world.

Why do people continue to do things that make them miserable? Why do people continue to stay on even though it causes them to have farkedup feelings?

I must be getting old.

Growing up, ha.

Stifled, feeling very stifled. Sak-kee.

she uttered nonsense at 9:44 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

ahHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Procrastination with a capital P!!!

sian. Tomorrow sch start le, didn't feel like a recess week at all. Fake one. Every morning wake up early go project meeting, come back do project, at night do project. I didn't even study for quiz la. (ok that's a trade off for watching so much tv in between HAHA) And I went shopping only once, and got myself broke.

One more week please! I hereby promise that given one more week, I would fully utilise it to study hard. I promise!! haha. If only.

I thought I did, but I didn't. Ohwells. Yesyes, time. Everything needs time. Everyone wants time. Everyone wants more time. So give it to me baby, *uh-huh, uh-huh*.

I think I'm going mad. I think it's the feeling of being sent to the slaughterhouse, of knowing you're going to be dead soon. Uh-oh.

she uttered nonsense at 10:07 PM