narcissistic pleasure

Friday, December 22, 2006

Breathe in, breathe out. K-ing, shopping, shopping. whee.

'Look like the innocent flower, but be the serpent under 't.'
Hypo-potamus.

She asked, 'don't you?' I said 'no'. Ok so maybe I was lying... but just a little bit. Trying to convince myself, maybe? Ironically, he asked too, and on the same night. This time I said yes. I guess I just wanted to let him really understand a little bit of what he would be going through, and that it's normal... I think.

It's funny the circumstances that brought us closer. It's weird how true it is, about how much I know although technically I wasn't ever invited. And it's also weird how I said all that, almost baring my heart to someone who's link with me has been broken. I never dared tell too many people, maybe I was afraid of others seeing the weak and pathetic side of me, or I didn't want others to change their impression of this happy-go-lucky girl.

Happy-go-lucky. I got allyne's card today, (thank you girl, and ure so early, i'm so proud of u haha) and a particular part of what she said invoked quite alot of mixed emotions in me. Where's the yuqin everyone once knew? I'm an 'inborn kai xin guo' and so from now onwards I WILL smile more. And so darling, here's a smile for you --> =D You may not realize it, you may not even have purposely meant it, but I think you woke me up. Thank you, you. (:

More shopping tmr, with the added bonus of mummydearest. heehee=D Gonna drag her to mango and dorothy perkins to continue where I left off earlier today!! yayys. Oh and girlS!! mng got sale. But how long has it been im not too sure. hahaa

she uttered nonsense at 1:01 AM