narcissistic pleasure

Monday, December 18, 2006

When you lose contact with someone you were once close to, it becomes quite sad. That person becomes someone you don't really know, either because he or she has changed so much that you don't really recognize them anymore, or that so much has been going on in their lives that you aren't aware of, that it becomes almost impossible to feel close to that person any longer. A pity, really.

Those 2 days helped me find back abit of my humanity. True, it wasn't all fun and games, it was especially tiring, and trying. I felt kinda like a nanny. But it was a two-way thing. We helped each other. Cos it taught me patience, acceptance, love, and understanding. Things that I seemed to have lost in recent times. And that it isn't about quantity, it's about quality. Those people don't exactly have the best of everything, minimal in fact, but they're genuinely happy. And it reminded me to appreciate the little things in life. That even small acheivements are successes in themselves, and by that reason alone, is a cause for celebration.

I met some pretty nice people there, and they aren't just from anti-you. It's heartening to see that there are many people out there who are willing to help, who do care about the less fortunate people in society. To tell you the truth, I was initially quite skeptical. I was under the impression that many of them would be there for socializing purposes. But they all proved me wrong.... well MOST of them anyway. Haha, huns knows what I'm talking about. So anyways I've already got a red flower from the other time, and now I got an orange and green furry one to add to it. It's sweet how within that short period of time they can remember that I like orange and he gave that particular one that he made to me.

Maybe the camp really helped. Suddenly it seems as though.... it isn't such a pain in the neck anymore. Well it still is quite a pesky thing... just that I'm beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel already. Or have I simply gotten used to it? hmmm. Regardless, it's good.

I need to adjust my bodyclock!! It's seriously screwed. All I can say is, DAMN YOU GOONG AND O2!! hurhur. And 56's tempted me to watch er zuo ju all over again!!

And I've got driving 3 times this coming week! How positively exciting. I can't wait. Can you tell? I can't wait... pfffft. haha.

When the facts are staring at you blatantly in your face, you have no choice but to accept it, isn't it? Acceptance is one thing, how you react to it is another. But it's okay. Just a little while more, and it'll be okay.

Here's a shoutout to all the december nellers: wenyi, shifu, yiing, pekpek, haoyi - HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU'RE ALL A YEAR OLDER AND NO MATTER WHAT I'M STILL YOUNGER THAN ANY OF YOU!! MUAHHHAHAHA =D

she uttered nonsense at 1:57 AM