narcissistic pleasure

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

A thousand and one thoughts running through my head this past week.

The most recent?

Good riddance to bad rubbish,
You're not that perfect afterall,
plus,
I'm glad it's not me hah!

I reckon that with this, reality tv has reached an all new low. Though it'll be quite interesting to see how these children survive all by themselves. Ah, the contradiction, I guess that's why reality networks seem so inhumane yet work so well.

I travelled a total of 4 hours today for a 2 hour lesson. wonderful.

I feel KIAPED in between them. Worse, I feel like one of those plebians swaying from caesar to antony. wthwthwth

You know what annoys me? People who act all high-and-mighty and all-knowing. People who just must bring you down to prove their own worth. Smart-aleckish, more like. I mean, hello, you're so much older and having had so much more experience than me, isn't it understandable that I know less than you in these areas? There's a reason why I'm still STUDYING, and not out there earning big bucks. yet. Everything I learn right now is pretty theory-based, don't tsk and roll your eyes when you think that I'm not providing you with a satisfactory enough answer your years of experience is looking out for. And please don't put me down, I have enough self-confidence, or lack thereof, issues as it is. I know my results aren't great, I know they suck, I know there's many things that I learnt in the past few years that I can't recall at the snap of your fingers or that I probably already threw away right after the exams. But isn't that a common phenomenon? Can you tell me straight in my face that you didn't do that too? That you didn't need a refresher course ever? There's a reason why there's training provided when we join the workforce, isn't it?

Jinx also thinks I'm emotionally unstable. I know it's because there was never really a proper.... well. The more people I seem to be surrounded with, the more alone I feel, and the more withdrawn I become.

Raw emotions. wtf I hate this post. It's gonna be a one-off thing.

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she uttered nonsense at 1:07 AM