narcissistic pleasure

Sunday, May 01, 2011

Sometimes it's not that I want to be bias or that I'm intentionally irrational, but honestly when you act that way, like a freaking immature spoilt kid, how the fuck do u expect me to sympathize in that few small moments that you seem like you need some form of support.

忍

Labels: fam

she uttered nonsense at 12:22 PM

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Recently, my dad has been on a qin-let's-do-lunch spree. My dad, being the usual chinese traditionalist, doesn't really say much when it comes to feelings, so this time I think this might have something to do with the fact that I will be away (I wanted to say 'gone' but I don't really like that word) soon, and he's trying to spend more time with me where possible.

Loved.

Labels: au, fam

she uttered nonsense at 1:58 PM

Friday, November 05, 2010

话，像水，泼了出去是收不回来的。
即使试着收回，地板也还是湿了。

我曾经说过，有一天，你会把我们一个一个的逼出去。
哈，回想起，那是七年前的事了。
七年后，不是如此吗？

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she uttered nonsense at 1:58 PM

Thursday, March 25, 2010

No offense to my guy friends, but seriously, if all guys are secretly like that, I think I have just given up hope on the male species.

The straw that broke the camel's back. Arse.

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she uttered nonsense at 10:33 PM

Monday, March 15, 2010

In the quiet of the night, awake-
Searching for answers;
Incomplete, unsatisfied, lost.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not emo. Just.... lost.
I'm lost.

All that is happening recently just brought back all the gawdawful memories of before. Cannot help but wonder if everything really is alright already. Whether it's still a pretense... for our sake? Actually... if it is I don't really wanna know either.

One day I'm going to read back all these entries and have no idea what I'm talking about cos I speak in codes too much, too often. Ha.

/edit
4am and i found new love... ebay!! die.

//edit
wtf is a portable grand piano. ridiculous.
kenneth cole watches are <3333
i need to go to bed soon it's 5 HAHA.

Labels: fam, whatswrongwithme

she uttered nonsense at 1:46 AM

Saturday, February 06, 2010

Sometimes people just don't realize that their actions affect not just who they're targetting, but everyone around them.

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she uttered nonsense at 10:32 PM

Friday, January 01, 2010

Trust - something so simple yet so complex; so hard to earn but so easily lost.

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she uttered nonsense at 10:56 PM

Friday, August 14, 2009

She asked, why so irritated now when they have been doing this all this time?

Yes that's the way it has always been but I guess maybe I'm just not that stupid anymore that I do recognize when I'm being exploited. It's unreasonable and I know that there's nothing I can do about that, but that doesn't stop me from feeling irritated all the same. What's more surprising (or not) is that you still insist that I remain here. For what? For my bloody own good? Even if it means losing myself in the process? Which I'm already kinda halfway there.

For the past twenty-three years, you never cared not bothered, and I've already made peace with that after much pain, so please don't upset the balance now, because at this point of time, the more you attempt to control, the further my autopilot-self is just going to push you away. Which I don't want to, not really.

Law of attraction. I willed myself to get MC, and now I'm really sick.

Labels: fam, whatever, work

she uttered nonsense at 1:32 AM

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Everything seems so.... -indescribable. Foreboding sense. Can't be the calm before the storm cos the storm happened, yet feels like it.

Sometimes I can't help but think that maybe, maybe it'd be better if pretence is not put up any longer. If so, will it kill everyone? Or spare all instead.

I don't know either.

Labels: fam

she uttered nonsense at 11:44 PM