Tuesday, January 03, 2012
Throwing away your toothbrush makes everything feel so......
final.
Ohwell. As j said, it's going to hurt no matter what, so be firm now and don't drag it any longer. I'm sorry, blame me for being humji, or for being so uncertain all the time.
I want to get back to what was, but it doesn't seem possible...... at least not now.
Giving it time.
Labels: life
she uttered nonsense at 8:37 PM
Friday, December 02, 2011
Someone tell me what to do to get out of this!!! le sigh.
Labels: grumbles
she uttered nonsense at 4:20 AM
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
How many times and in how many ways can you say to someone this isnt working
now what did i get myself into.......
Labels: discovering meself
she uttered nonsense at 6:59 PM
Sunday, October 09, 2011
It's been awhile.
I've been thinking about what was said during dinner just now, and it's making me slightly dreary. So a couple of them were saying that in a year or so I'll find myself losing friends from back home, from either just simply losing touch/interest, or because I/they change so much that we're no longer on common frequency and it starts becoming a chore to keep up.
And then I see those videos on fb and I suddenly got very melancholy. Indeed it's.......... different. To be fair we were already drifting apart, but still. I'm not afraid to say what I want to here cos she won't be reading this, not now not ever, but it isn't a very pleasant feeling. And the one thing that kept popping out from dinner was when I probably had a pretty horrified expression on me and they just laughed and said hey it's nothing bad, you lose one and u make another. It's a step forward cos they're no longer the type u wanna hang out with anymore. And it's ringing so many bells in my head right now.
Ding dong, ding dong and wedding marches.
The sad thing is, if I want to be perfectly honest to myself, when I look at what I have/am going through now, I don't regret anything. I don't regret losing what was back home cos I've seen what is, and can be, here. I don't know if this will change in a year or two, but if you ask me now, I'd say if it comes down to it, I'd sacrifice what was, for what is and what will be. Am I too much?
I blame it on the fact that I'm hanging out with an older, and definitely very much more different, crowd nowadays, and these are people who've been here for ages and don't really see themselves going back anytime soon cos home isn't home to them anymore. These are the people who break out in song and dance and feel right at home here. These are the people who... live. Who have dreams and chase it. Passion - something that was sorely lacking and yet I never knew until now...
Well at least I'm writing this down here for now. When I don't and yet I feel that way..... is the time when it's one of you.........
Labels: life
she uttered nonsense at 9:32 PM
Sunday, July 03, 2011
I am having such serious cravings for yu pian mi fen it is not even funny.
Labels: wtfomg
she uttered nonsense at 6:06 PM
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Yes I guess I'm weird in that way but the more something is forced upon me, the more I resist it. The more you push, the more I'm just going to back away. So give me some space, ok. Annoyed.
Labels: whatever
she uttered nonsense at 9:50 PM
Sunday, June 26, 2011
omggg
nooooo?
Labels: whatswrongwithme
she uttered nonsense at 10:00 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2011
I'm moving out tomorrow!! Cannot believe it's been two whole weeks. Slightly upset when shyuan left in the arvo today but I guess it's time I face the world alone! NewFriend's coming to pick me up tomorrow (totally weirded out abt everything but it's been great still) to drive me to my new place. And my new housemate's off to tasmania tomorrow, so I guess the coming week will be me alone in the new place again! Ohwells it'll still be great fun.
So it's so coincidental that my new polish bff loves spongebob too!! Spongebob brings pple tgt. HAHA!! Met so many more people during the drinks sesh on friday and I had my very first full mandarin conversation in two weeks with this really nice lady from Shanghai. A couple frustrations here and there from all the admin problems I'm facing but I'm hoping it'll sort themselves out in the weeks to come. So don't worry abt me friends!! (((:
Labels: au
she uttered nonsense at 10:58 PM
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
HELLO FRIENDS!!!
I've been great, so far so good! Totally excited about everything that is happening right now, and still trying to get used to the new environment. Making new friends, remembering everyone's names, getting lost and walking long distances - it's all good fun! It's also awesome that shyuan's with me right now so I have someone who's like a partner (HAHA) who has dinner on the stove when i'm back at this temp apartment. Gonna move out on sunday morning to my permanent place if my future housemate wants me hurr (still getting the rent and all sorted out). Work's been good so far too, everyone's been really friendly, and this place is like UN - I counted a total of THREE australians that I've met so far, they're like a rare species here HAHA.
Would love to post up photos but my data (it's pronounced as dar-tar here; i learnt it the hard way HAHA) plan's limited and I'm left with 200mb for the next month so no pictures! Hope everyone's been doing great too! Love (:
Labels: au
she uttered nonsense at 6:49 PM
Wednesday, June 01, 2011
The problem (or convenience, actually) of gmail/google is that they pick up EVERYTHING and now whenever i google for something (when i wanna ship stuff from US to SG), the first few choices that come up usually end with a '.au' which is fantastic really but not what I want.... not yet anyway.
It just goes to show there is no such thing as privacy on the internet. Good and bad, cos look at
this! So awesome right. In this day and age, one should learn never to steal other people's things anymore. Especially techie stuff. This is even more awesome than
kimjongil looking at things, although it is still pretty awesome in the inanely awesome way hahahaha!! My favourite is kimjongil looking at fish.
Labels: random
she uttered nonsense at 2:44 PM
